Today has been a whirlwind of emotions. Alright, who am I kidding, my entire life is a whirlwind of emotions. When God was handing out the different attributes, I think that he slipped and filled my whole trick or treat bag of personality with emotions. I am so excited to go to France and teach little French children but, the logistics are a little overwhelming. I am nervous that even though I have been trying to save every penny, I may run into some money problems when I get over there.
I'm no stranger to being frugal or waiting (sometimes not so) patiently until I can afford something. That wait (usually) makes the fruit sweeter. I'm nervous though that once I am in France and living there, there will be some things that I won't be able to wait to do and I will feel stressed over money there. I guess that I'll just have to suck it up and worry about that when I get over there. Hopefully, everything will work out and things will just fall into place.
The dull ache behind my eyes from the stress tears is a telltale sign that I worried enough today. I need to fall back into my bed and try to float off into the land of dreams where I will hopefully not think about the headache that is France. This is going to be the adventure of a lifetime, I just have to get there. Last week I bought my plane ticket. I am so blessed and lucky that my Dad bought it for me. He is so awesome and I don't know what I would do without him. Later this week, KJ (my sister) and I are travelling to Chicago so that I can get my visa. I'm a bit nervous for that too but I'll get to see my Chica so it'll be worth it.
Days like today remind me that I am by no means in control nor would I want to be. I am thankful to be guided and encompassed by such a loving Father that I don't have to worry about any of this. If only I could remember that when life gets overwhelming!
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